Psalm 86:11-13

Teach me your way, O Lord,
and I will walk in your truth;
give me an undivided heart,
that I may fear your name.

I will praise you, O Lord my God,
with all my heart;
I will glorify your name forever.

For great is your love toward me;
you have delivered me from the
depths of the grave.

There is so much I don't understand about God and how to be the kind of follower He wants me to be.

I want to please Him, but I don't always know how. I want to do what's right in every situation, but I don't always know what that is. I want to love Him above all else, but I don't always know what that really means. I want to confess all of my sins, and yet I don't even know all of what I do that offends Him.

It weighs heavy on my heart when I see others twist and distort His Word, but I know that at times I do it, too. I am angered when leaders in the church falsely teach others, but I have to admit I have done the same in my own home through the years. I am frustrated that our corporate churches do not agree on doctrine, and as a result it hinders the unity of the body of Christ, but I know I am human and want to further my own agenda and beliefs far too often, too.

When I measure myself against our Lord, I always fall short. I cannot imagine a love so big that He searches me out, accepts me as I am, works in me patiently as He teaches me His ways, and remains even when I disobey or ignore Him. He sent His only Son to suffer and die for me, so that I might be restored to Him. When I contemplate that act alone, I am so shamed in who I am and how undeserving I am of that honor. I can never live up to the worthiness that such an unselfish act demands, even on my best day.

My heart wants to serve you alone, O Lord! Even in this desire, I need you to instill it in me, to keep me focused, to teach me how to do just that. My prayer today is the words of this Psalm, so beautifully written from the heart. Let it be my prayer all of my days!